Hate
I've been so nervous and neurotic, that I can't even throw a single stream of words to this blog. Maybe now, I'm taking it more easy, but I feel sad.
There was so much time I spen't worring about studying, or 'having to', I hate to worry, it consumes me by the inside. I left myself behind, unhealthy. Depresion is cool to describe when you have overcome it. I've lost interest, the world is oppressing me. For this I may hope someone (I care) give me a hand, spit me a word or two, but instead, every time that no one (she doesn't) cares, I'll fall higher and harder. What are feelings, why can't be (fake) always happy?. Fortune tells me what to do. I think, I can do what it takes to do anything, but where I am going. I can't find a way to get happy, like in the real life ... good luck.
Saturday, November 30, 2002
Sunday, November 24, 2002
Kuchen Meister At The Hell's Kitchen
Cooking secrets at gouki.com.ar. So... What happen when you boil six sausages and half liter of water for two hours aproximately?... no one? Well, you can be ready for black smoke curtain on your home, and Voilá, also you can transform flesh into carbon pretty fast :P. Then, my "meat" isn't looking nice, and I'm still hungry... today's lesson is: 'flesh + fire = carbon'.
Cooking secrets at gouki.com.ar. So... What happen when you boil six sausages and half liter of water for two hours aproximately?... no one? Well, you can be ready for black smoke curtain on your home, and Voilá, also you can transform flesh into carbon pretty fast :P. Then, my "meat" isn't looking nice, and I'm still hungry... today's lesson is: 'flesh + fire = carbon'.
Friday, November 22, 2002
Yes, Yeah?... burn in HELL
My boss most deep fears were confirmed today, the conflictive system client call'd us and my task is to fix that error. All my relief has gone now. To start fixing nothing first I've to research every crappy line code. Apocalypse now, I'm now summoned to exile the beast, that monster system will know my wrath. I haven't my powers fully recover. Now I'm parting to my mission.
My boss most deep fears were confirmed today, the conflictive system client call'd us and my task is to fix that error. All my relief has gone now. To start fixing nothing first I've to research every crappy line code. Apocalypse now, I'm now summoned to exile the beast, that monster system will know my wrath. I haven't my powers fully recover. Now I'm parting to my mission.
I hear voices echoing on my brain
My head hurts, After all, I was sick. People who said 'you are down' yesterday were right, I'm sick since then and don't know why. It's pretty rare. This issue will pretty harm my third eye intuition and my telekinessis skills, I won't be able to use my powers for a week, shoot ... just in the exam season, I have to study like any normal being.
My head hurts, After all, I was sick. People who said 'you are down' yesterday were right, I'm sick since then and don't know why. It's pretty rare. This issue will pretty harm my third eye intuition and my telekinessis skills, I won't be able to use my powers for a week, shoot ... just in the exam season, I have to study like any normal being.
Wednesday, November 20, 2002
This is stupid
A blog means, can mean anything. But a blog is mine, I have freedom to do whatever I like, so this is a step back. Why I dont want to get fired from a crappy job where none cares about what I really think? Pure hypocrisy. Ill never get dress like that.
A blog means, can mean anything. But a blog is mine, I have freedom to do whatever I like, so this is a step back. Why I dont want to get fired from a crappy job where none cares about what I really think? Pure hypocrisy. Ill never get dress like that.
No Dough,
Red Numbers
Feeling Down
People says I'm down, I don't know, I'm tired. And when I'm tired I can't see the meaning of life. Why do I study, why do I work, if the world is nothing like a torture to me. I don't feel good. I hate to remember I'm nothing. I need some self-esteem and a sense of accomplishment.
Hosting Dilema,
So far, I've three options:
1. D-Link Connection
It is the most expensive option, but I get full control of everyting
2. DataCenter
Lightly cheaper than 1., having to buy a nice server costs me, and be for ever remote.
3. Managed Server
Very good prices, but I get no control of the server
_Must_ sleep now
Red Numbers
Feeling Down
People says I'm down, I don't know, I'm tired. And when I'm tired I can't see the meaning of life. Why do I study, why do I work, if the world is nothing like a torture to me. I don't feel good. I hate to remember I'm nothing. I need some self-esteem and a sense of accomplishment.
Hosting Dilema,
So far, I've three options:
1. D-Link Connection
It is the most expensive option, but I get full control of everyting
2. DataCenter
Lightly cheaper than 1., having to buy a nice server costs me, and be for ever remote.
3. Managed Server
Very good prices, but I get no control of the server
_Must_ sleep now
Tuesday, November 19, 2002
Thursday, November 14, 2002
New job request,
My boss asks me if I know someone who knows Java.
I remembered a friend of highschool, he is capable. I think I'll train him and set him ready to rock Java2.
New record,
I've arrived at work 5 (five) hours late =P.
Loss of sleep
I stayed working late for this month (and past too) project. I'm on a wild goose chase, some ISP are crazy, they think client=stupid asshole, getting prices for hosting/connection is pure chaos.
I think the "european connection" is doing fine, and that's the best spot for the project to develop.
Yesterday late, some ex co-worker call'd me asking me for hosting, I said "I'll do". Greed.
Also, is growing the focus on the "american connection" I've a good feeling.
Every day
I'm writing some code for a dynamic dns client over SSL.
I miss the blog on November 13, that's because the bloging frenzy.
Maybe I add a counter, buy I'm lazy on this, no to mention that free-counters are sloooow.
Post Data,
gArbz, ... hasn't posted nor commented anything, what is she up to?
My boss asks me if I know someone who knows Java.
I remembered a friend of highschool, he is capable. I think I'll train him and set him ready to rock Java2.
New record,
I've arrived at work 5 (five) hours late =P.
Loss of sleep
I stayed working late for this month (and past too) project. I'm on a wild goose chase, some ISP are crazy, they think client=stupid asshole, getting prices for hosting/connection is pure chaos.
I think the "european connection" is doing fine, and that's the best spot for the project to develop.
Yesterday late, some ex co-worker call'd me asking me for hosting, I said "I'll do". Greed.
Also, is growing the focus on the "american connection" I've a good feeling.
Every day
I'm writing some code for a dynamic dns client over SSL.
I miss the blog on November 13, that's because the bloging frenzy.
Maybe I add a counter, buy I'm lazy on this, no to mention that free-counters are sloooow.
Post Data,
gArbz, ... hasn't posted nor commented anything, what is she up to?
Tuesday, November 12, 2002
I remained slept,
and again, late at job, as I usually do.
Today I've contacted one of my friends
and he remembered my past month's master plan, now I have only one-week to make it happen.
Time is running out.
I think I work too hard, today I've taken less than an hour for my lunch, that I also delayed (by work).
Here I'm with a new pack of bugfixes...
and again, late at job, as I usually do.
Today I've contacted one of my friends
and he remembered my past month's master plan, now I have only one-week to make it happen.
Time is running out.
I think I work too hard, today I've taken less than an hour for my lunch, that I also delayed (by work).
Here I'm with a new pack of bugfixes...
Monday, November 11, 2002
So... the wireless guys raised the antenna to reach the sky, touching a cloud, meeting the creator,
just to prove that the service provider lacks the performance or reliability that Broadband is supposed to give.
What a waste of time and uhf (ultra high freq) wire.
The conection with the ISP is a lot better, but the internet conection still sucks, it can hardly double modem speeds.
I'm on the begining again and the only thing I've won, is a lot of holes in my neighbor's wall. :P
Now I've another failure to fix.
Dramatization
I call support...
<Support> Yes, Tech Support here, what can (can't) I do for you
<Me> I'm having _problems_ with my connection
<Support> What kind of "problems"?
<Me> extremely low speed
<Support> Who are you? (Ask for all my data)
<Me> (All my data again)
<Support> What kind of test are you performing, what are you doing?
<Me> just testing
<Support> Ok, we'll call you every thing looks fine from here
<Me> ok
<Support> Give me your phone number (Ask for all my data ... again)
just to prove that the service provider lacks the performance or reliability that Broadband is supposed to give.
What a waste of time and uhf (ultra high freq) wire.
The conection with the ISP is a lot better, but the internet conection still sucks, it can hardly double modem speeds.
I'm on the begining again and the only thing I've won, is a lot of holes in my neighbor's wall. :P
Now I've another failure to fix.
Dramatization
I call support...
<Support> Yes, Tech Support here, what can (can't) I do for you
<Me> I'm having _problems_ with my connection
<Support> What kind of "problems"?
<Me> extremely low speed
<Support> Who are you? (Ask for all my data)
<Me> (All my data again)
<Support> What kind of test are you performing, what are you doing?
<Me> just testing
<Support> Ok, we'll call you every thing looks fine from here
<Me> ok
<Support> Give me your phone number (Ask for all my data ... again)
Another past-noon's trip to the bank,
I'm regreting loosing my debit card every day, every hour, wasted trying to get some money to live.
Like always, the city were full of angry people on the street and in the bank. Those in the bank, poor mad fanatics, barking for a little attention (they haven't learn that no one cares), because the electronic banking system for deposits where brutally (intentionally) set "offline", so they (barking people) can flee.
I've heard that people likes (deeply) to stay wasting time in banks.
I'm regreting loosing my debit card every day, every hour, wasted trying to get some money to live.
Like always, the city were full of angry people on the street and in the bank. Those in the bank, poor mad fanatics, barking for a little attention (they haven't learn that no one cares), because the electronic banking system for deposits where brutally (intentionally) set "offline", so they (barking people) can flee.
I've heard that people likes (deeply) to stay wasting time in banks.
Check this two
http://www.collab.net/ and http://jivesoftware.com/
... c'mon, designers are getting hunger...
http://www.collab.net/ and http://jivesoftware.com/
... c'mon, designers are getting hunger...
I hate
when people send me an email, with something like 'how are you?', 'are you alive?', etc. Just to keep the "channel" alive (not me), if you want to see someone go and see her/him, but don't ask stupid questions like those. This demonstrates the zero effort. Besides what can I reply to them, 'I'm ok' just that, my life isn't full of exciting events that can be enumerated everytime for everyone, then I remember ... and decay in depression.
when people send me an email, with something like 'how are you?', 'are you alive?', etc. Just to keep the "channel" alive (not me), if you want to see someone go and see her/him, but don't ask stupid questions like those. This demonstrates the zero effort. Besides what can I reply to them, 'I'm ok' just that, my life isn't full of exciting events that can be enumerated everytime for everyone, then I remember ... and decay in depression.
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