I feel very distant and sad. I wish...
Over

Confirmed: It wasn't the Armageddon
It was superficial they said.

Find Hungry Samurai! The Armageddon
8:03PM, and I haven't had a lunch nor breakfast. I feel very sick, my stomach is empty and aching (like my soul). My lips are dry, I need water. By the way -this is fucking bizarre, yet real- walking on the city I cloud not avoid looking the ashes (paper ashes?) raining from the sky, strange, but on the horizon (to the east), I can see a giant inferno like smoke cloud. Maybe Armageddon has finally come, Yahoo! Horale!. I miss my life like it was a two years ago exactly... mmm. I've to end some stupid coding before the home run. Yes, I'll fail again to my commitments (uade). I miss the red sun of the dusk. I miss happiness.

Comfort vs Money, Comfort & Spare Time, Pain
Comfort always wins. I hate to think. Today I forgot my book, and also today was the best day for reading on the job transfer. Thinking a lot, I've come with a few ideas. My life is a mess. I'm an extreme coward, better, I'm a destiny's slave. The best thing I cloud do is what I have to (not what I want). I'm so fuck'd up.

Now I'm Completely Lost
If you love constantly and inconditionally you will be loved back someday... but that someday cloud be afterlife.

Vague
Duty calls

Sleep
Now

The Painbringer

It wasn't over, but, my life is not going to be the same, never. Now, I've felt a deep pain, an eternal sadness that can only be sedated by the time and by hardening the soul. I'm my own victim. No one cares. I have no real, no surprise, no pasion, just suffering, and thoughts. Maybe, life never ends, but it will definitively end when you say "it ended". Never hurt someone like others hurt you. Be good, they say. I think people are there to hurt each other. This can't be stopped. Remember, people can have your heart to love it as much as they can, plus, they can also hurt as much as they will. Never love anyone, that will be devastating. Love yourself, and be materialist as much as you can. Just that. Be with the people that give you something nice back, and the others, forget them, there are billions of people that cloud be better. And, the most important never loose yourself, there's nothing you can do. Yourself is the most important. Enjoy your life by yourself, it's easier, it's better, and never, never, thrust anyone. They will give pain. Me, and you -inevitably, and in the end- are completely alone, you can count with yourself and nobody else. People care about their own happines, remember. I loved so much. I'll never do the same. People hate, destroy, and kill, that's the usual behavior.

Life Over
My life ended a while ago, yesterday the truth have come to my knowledge.

Convict bus
It's been a lot of time since I'm not taking the convict bus, yes, this stinking, unconfortable, vitiated transport for the masses. The rushed masses that will risk their comfort, their freedorm, just to get work on time. To make their bosses happy, to get a better economical position. How pathetic and funny becomes the idea, because it's already real. Their demential faces show deep resignation, used to feel pain. The beasts are driven by their flesh lust. On the middle on this, I discover a little of beaty at a glance, that reflects the dawn light, slept, still. The beautiful convict.

Lovely
It's adorable when people shows how ignorant and brutish they are. Yes, it's excellent, specially when I've the forceful reality in range of my fingers, ready to mop them in their faces.